I am no longer wildflower

past is past.

but why does it come back to haunt me?

I only wanted the best for me.

the past has changed me into someone I'm not really proud of.

i'm thankful and will always be, that God took His time to save me.

despite the scars of yesterday, we move on with the blessings of today

and hope to finally give the best of us to ourselves first, to our significant other,

to our family & friends, to the community, to mankind

anticipation

...was 25th in line this morning at White Marsh Mall for iPhone 3G. still trying to activate it online c/o iTunes. But the site has crashed! oh well... let's sit and wait.

(1 hour later...)

looking at the white backing on it gets me so excited. of course i HAD to get the white one and fork out another hundred because my macbook is white. and besides, everyone has the black one. the back doesnt feel cheap at all. it's sleeker and sexier AND you can't see the fingerprint smudges on white except on the apple logo on the back which is silver. can't wait till i can use it. i mean, i'm excommunicado til then. just have to be patient.

btw, this is my present to myself for failing the Math Placement exam. HAHAHA! at least it's over and done with. made me cranky and anxious past week. hohum. let's see how my bargaining skills are with this situation. first time around, i passed the college level math and failed the elementary algebra. now, on the retake i did the opposite- failed college level and passed elementary algebra! i was kinda rushed at the end because it was 730pm and the proctors were leaving. darnit. hope and pray that they take my HIGHEST scores on both parts. let's see. ;)

gotta get out of starbucks. iTunes is too bogged down right now.

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UPDATE: 3:22PM, iTunes came back u for me after mechanically plugging in/out my USB cord. got a text message from Chesco. cool. i'm in iPhone heaven. :D

2nd UPDATE: 4:57PM, i actually did pass the math exam! the advisor was like, "oh yeah, we can take the top two scores you have." WOW! i feel truly blessed. Thanks, God. Halleluia :D

WHAT YOU SAY NOW?

HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH I HATE MATH

and math hates me. (*bow*)

siesta

kunwari wala na ang lahat

at ang natira na lang syo ay ang hubad mong katawan, ang maganda mong buhok na kikislap-kislap sa sikat ng araw at sa ihip ng hangin

nakatitig ka lang sa kawalan

napaisip ka,

na sa dami-dami ng tao



ikaw lang pala

amigos grandes

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints on your heart. To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart Anger is only one letter short of danger. If someone betrays you once, it is his fault; if he betrays you twice, it is your fault. Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss other people. He who loses money, loses much; he who loses a friend, loses much more; he who loses faith, loses all. Beautiful young people are accidents of nature, but beautiful old people are works of art. Learn from the mistakes of others. You can't live long enough to make them all yourself... There is no beginning or end. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift, that's why they call it the present.

(unknown)

grandes amigos

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints on your heart. To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart Anger is only one letter short of danger. If someone betrays you once, it is his fault; if he betrays you twice, it is your fault. Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss other people. He who loses money, loses much; he who loses a friend, loses much more; he who loses faith, loses all. Beautiful young people are accidents of nature, but beautiful old people are works of art. Learn from the mistakes of others. You can't live long enough to make them all yourself... There is no beginning or end. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift, that's why they call it the present.

(unknown)

red highlights

it's been a week full of great moments.

i got my hair styled and dyed red again c/o my secret financier ehem.* fun fun. took a while too. 5 hrs. i could almost see chesco's brothers (collin and cyril) bleeding tears in silent agony waiting for me and their mom to finish. how patient of them!

then we went to penang's for dinner - a malaysian restaurant. the experience was everlasting especially with a singaporean waiter who knew tagalog, pati mga hirit sa tagalog. aliw talaga. and i simply will not forget tito roger's face when it was time for someone to pay the bill. :D

went to point pleasant, NJ, which is like a mini ocean city, MD. less boardwalk to cover yet all the good stuff is right there where you want it to be - the arcade, the italian ice, junk food, horror house. sobrang saya talaga.

BLD grand reunion was fun. ches and i did the rosary. we survived the skit. our calderetang baka was really good. i wanted to take it back home. tsk tsk! it was great seeing all the old faces from SE 20. getting back with james and christine afterwards was sweet. i miss them together (LOL). i'll miss them more when james moves.

we suck at playing tennis too. franz brought his longboard with him and he just cruised around the court. ellen seemed deep in thought with her nursing status and all. i hope it turns out okay. :D

it was weird how we lounged around all saturday just in time to meet up with anne benito and jp ventura in downtown jersey. now that was craazy fun. just because everything clicked. maybe even meant to be.

most of all, i've learned about one of the most important people in my life: ches. i've seen his habits, how he thinks (and overthinks), drives, schemes aka plans, etc. and how overwhelming it all is. maybe that's how life should take you, and how you should take it: arms wide open and with a grain of salt.


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it was raining hard when i boarded my bus without saying goodbye. not on purpose though. i didn't even have time to get my stuff from his car. i knew i'd see him sometime soon. ;)