Until Morning

Goodnight, my blog.

It's time to retire you.

Thanks for all the bittersweet memories, love.

Goodbye~

XOXO,

Mayumi

Rooftops & Invitations

The first time you looked at her curves you were hooked
And the glances you took, took hold of you and demanded that you stay
And sunk in their teeth, bit your heart and released
Such a charge that you need another touch, another taste, another fix

She just might get you lost
And she just might leave you torn
But she just might save your soul
If she gets you when she gets you any closer

She leads you up, points out skylines and stars, steeple chases in bars
And took your keys and demanded that you stay
The city longs well for rooftops and invitations
All lace in secret places, she moves you to touch with her hands

And she just might get you lost
And she just might leave you torn
But she just might save your soul
If she gets you when she gets you any closer

Under the cold sheet, where the welcomed touch of skin and skin will meet
Out on the inside where a girls prize is at the tip of your tongue
Where every move and each impulse brings clarity
To stay like this is everything you'll ever need

She just might get you lost
And she just might leave you torn
But she just might save your soul
But she gets you any closer

Can you believe your eyes

-Dashboard Confessional

stolen

kawawa naman ang aking mga tuhod
nanghihina sa kada bigkas mo ng mga mapanlayang mga salita

kawawa naman ang utak ko
naging sabaw na sa kaiisip sa iyo

ngunit ang puso, nagpapakasaya !
pinangangalandakan ang banayad at wagas na pagsint´a

ng siyang nagtangkang nakawin ang puso't nagwagi.

tic-a-toc

inaakit ako ng orasan.

ang alok niya:

intayin ko raw siya.

ang banat ko:

bilisan niya.

ang hamon niya:

be patient.

ang sagot ko:

.... .

tama nga ang orasan.
kumbaga, ang kanyang kilos at takbo sa lumilipas na panahon,
kalakip na rin sa paglipol ng mga nagdaang alaala.
katuwang niya ang paghimlay ng mga saloobing di kanais nais;
mga bahid ng kahapong kailangan nang pahingahin.

ang mumunting orasan,
umuusad patungo sa tamang direksyon ng buhay...
sa tamang pagwawaksi ng panahon na Diyos lamang
ang may say kung kailan darating ang panahong
pinakainaasam asam mong mahagkan.

Ako'y sa Iyo at Ika'y sa Akin

Araw ko'y papanglaw
Kung di ka matatanaw
Khit saglit manlang
Ika'y masilayan

Sayo nga'y naghihintay 
Sa pag ibig mo hihimlay
Diyo's ang siyang pinagmulan
Ating pagmamahalan

Kahit pa magtatagal
Ako'y maghihintay
Kahit ulitin pang muli
Ang panahon n nagdaan

Hindi ako magpapagal
Di malulumbay
Aking tutunghayan
Ang bawat oras man
Alam ng may kapal

Puso'y wag mangangamba
pagkat wala na ngang iba
Mata ko'y nakapako na
sayo lamang aking sinta

At nais kong malaman m
Hindi ako mahihiya
Ipagsigawan sa mundo
Mahal na mahal kita.

"But I love your feet
only because they walked
upon the earth and upon
the wind and upon the waters,
until they found me."

-Pablo Neruda

even poets do laundry

Even poets do the laundry
Wash the dishes in the kitchen sink
Even poets are enslaved
to the schematic daily routine
Even poets do the laundry
But meanwhile they dream
Of someone else's pain
and of their own suffering.
Even poets do the laundry
From their own colorful thoughts
Picking words from the scattered pile
and assembling sentences line by line.

bagong buhay

nasilaw sa iyong anino
di nararapat na ika'y masilayan

at sa pagdapo ng iyong mga labi
sa aking makinis na balikat
at ang kanyang pansamantalang pagtigil roon

buntong hininga
sabay pikit -

dinala ako roon
sa lugar na pinakatagu-tago sa lahat

buong buhay kitang hinihintay
inaasam na mawari't makilatis
ibiging himayi't pupulutin ang mga butil
ng iyong sibulan ng pag-ibig

lisanin natin ang buhay ngayon
humarap sa buong pagsikat ng araw
mainit at masarap ang silat-kamay ng Diyos
tayo'y pinapatawa Niyang pilit pinasasaya.

ako'y iyong tuklasin
sa pamamagitan lamang ng isang malalim na tingin
at kahit sabaw na ang ating mga utak
pagsinta'y walang kakupas-kupas,
mahal q.

jeff buckley

Looking out the door
I see the rain fall upon the funeral mourners
Parading in a wake of sad relations
As their shoes fill up with water


Maybe I'm too young
To keep good love from going wrong
But tonight, you're on my mind so
You never know


Broken down and hungry for your love
With no way to feed it
Where are you tonight?
Child, you know how much I need it.
Too young to hold on
And too old to just break free and run


Sometimes a man gets carried away,
When he feels like he should be having his fun
Much too blind to see the damage he's done
Sometimes a man must awake to find that, really,
He has no-one...


So I'll wait for you... And I'll burn
Will I ever see your sweet return?
Oh, will I ever learn?
Oh, Lover, you should've come over
Cause it's not too late.


Lonely is the room the bed is made
The open window lets the rain in
Burning in the corner is the only one
Who dreams he had you with him
My body turns and yearns for a sleep
That won't ever come
It's never over,
My kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder
It's never over,
all my riches for her smiles when I slept so soft against her...
It's never over,
All my blood for the sweetness of her laughter...
It's never over,
She's a tear that hangs inside my soul forever...


But maybe I'm just too young to keep good love
From going wrong
Oh... lover you should've come over...


Yes, and I feel too young to hold on
I'm much too old to break free and run
Too deaf, dumb, and blind
To see the damage I've done
Sweet lover, you should've come over
Oh, love, well I'll wait for you
Lover, you should've come over
'Cause it's not too late.

Kung Ibig Mo Akong Makilala

Kung ibig mo akong makilala,
Lampasan mo ang guhit ng mahugis na balat,
Ang titig kong dagat—

Yumayapos nang mahigpit sa bawat saglit
Ng kahapon ko't bukas.

 Kung ibig mo akong makilala
Sunduin mo ako sa himlayang dilim
At sa madlang pagsukol ng inunang hilahil,
Ibangon ako at saka palayain.

Isang pag-ibig na lipos ng lingap,
Tahanang malaya sa pangamba at sumbat
May suhay ng tuwa't ang kaluwalhatia'y

Walang takda—
Ialay mo lahat ito sa akin

Kung mahal mo ako't ibig kilalanin.
Kung ibig mo akong kilalanin,
Sisirin mo ako hanggang buto,
Liparin mo ako hanggang utak,
Umilanlang ka hanggang kaluluwa—
Hubad ako roon: mula ulo hanggang paa.

-RES Mabanglo

romans 6: 12-18

nibble

just waiting for a bite
cast off into the ocean
a piece of my heart

you give me back your ear
to nibble nibble on

you feast on my mind like it's life's last banquet

deep into the depths of the ocean i go
never to be found again

our own paradise
in still slow motion.

the keys to my heart :)

When I fall in love
It will be forever
Or I'll never fall
In love

In a restless world like this is
Love is ended before it's begun
And too many moonlight kisses
Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun

When I give my heart
It will be completely
Or I'll never give
My heart

And the moment
I can feel that
You feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you
And the moment I can feel that
You feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you

For the Holy Spirit will teach you at that moment what you should say.

Back to Him

i turn to the light   ---

the light flickers

inside my brain

i am taken back

where the black hole of my insanity

reverberates into my consciousness

i swim out from underneath the weight of you


cut ---

to my dream.

you let go of my hand

in slow motion

as your smile got wider

the hole in my heart got bigger

and i could not breathe all of a sudden



cut ---

it was all a show

and i was on stage unknowing of the reality

that lay in front of me

i was blinking back at the audience

who inadvertently gasped when

my wedding dress cut to shreds

till i was naked

and bleeding from that hole


cut ---

two months later

i am holding this wildflower

windswept and pretty

different


i turn to the east

squinting at the morning sun

i talk to God.

He asks, "My child, what do you know of promises?"

I say, "God, I only know that they can easily be broken by man."

"Daughter, what about my promise to you?"(Jeremiah 29: 11-13)

"You're different God, I only look to you and will live in your promise, in Your never-ending love. I look to the east, and you are smiling down on me. I find my back against the wall, and you are there to save me. I am distraught, and one touch, you comfort me. I cannot afford to walk away from you, God. Thank you for being my true rock."

Kariktan

oo. hinahangad kita.
sa halimuyak ng iyong nagbabagang hininga
sa kinis ng iyong mukha at matamis na pagngiti
hindi ikinukubli ang pusong nagdaramdam
at walang alintana sa pagsunod at pagkilos ng aking pag-alab sapagkat
natahan na rin ako sa pananayang ng mga luha
wala nang iniisip kundi ikaw sa gabi
di na nagiiba ang mga paniginip
ikaw lamang ang hinahangad na makamtan habang buhay
na pagtitiis at pag-alay ng nagsisiklab na damdamin na
sa iyo rin lang naman mapupunta
sa iyo na ito

aawitan kita, isasayaw kita, mamumukod-tangi ang ating istorya
sa mundo isisiwalat at isisigaw ang ating mumunting pag-iibigan
na siya lamang mamumulaklak sa pagdaan ng tag-ulan at tag-araw
sa ating pagtanda at paglaki, sa ating pag-uunawa at paglalambingan
kislap na sa iyong mga mata,
tunay na kasiyahan ang nadarama sa tuwing
napapatingin ako sa iyo
nasisilayan ko ang aking sariling
banayad at tahimik

at kung makakaharap natin ang kalungkutan
nais kong mapasa-iyo ang mensaheng
malalagpasan din natin ito
ang lahat ng nararamdaman
ay pansamantala lamang
nariyan ang Diyos
upang tayo'y gabayan (Genesis 24)

itinataas sa Kanya lahat.

At pag tayo'y matanda na,
lilingunin natin ang ating nakaraan
kung bakit nga pala ambilis ng panahon
wala man akong ipapalit sa mga okasyon at alaala sa ating mabibilis na buhay
kumpleto na ang lahat at pwede na tayong mamatay.


naaalala ko pa ang unang beses na ika'y nasilayan ko;
sa bayan...naglalakad sa takipsilim may hawak na Coke...

twenty cents

dear safeway cashier,

thank you for making my day more meaningful. what you do - asking each person if they would like to donate 20 cents towards breast cancer research - is inspiring and humbling. it made me jump out of my skin and appreciate the small things in life.

myu

pano pa kaya sa hatian ng last piece ng liempo

• let it past na lang..
• kasi ur excited to make babies with him in the future..LOL

There is no such thing as a life without any regrets.